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For all these months, I have so many things I an eager to materialize , mainly all the great ideas that have been buzzing around in my mind. But in reality, I had failed to achieve even one...

It is a punishment...

I try to endure such disgust feel of emotional break down and hope for the turning point to arrive but with no avail.

The waiting continues where my time is running out...

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At the end of the day, everything just gone from worst to hopelessly apocalyptic.

Just a great moment to let some bad news broke out to me... I can't sit for this semester's resit examination... (No kidding... April's Fool Day is over...)

Try not to blame anyone but myself, I had again embarked my journey to the abyss beyond murky shadow of total annihilation since last year when I received the news that I need to repeat my advanced diploma course. Until this very day, the incident still sends shivers to my spine.

Yet, today the scenario had went to a new hight (New depths?) where I was told that I can't sit for this semester's examination due to the late payment of the bill...
Okay, I admit that I have some responsibility regarding this mishap but I still have to blame one of my friend for not being doing his job well by forgetting to pay for my bill which he promised earlier. It was a long story of course and I believe writing it down is totally redundant as if my life aren't miserable enough.

Anyway, the big problem is if my parents knows this, it is history for me and sooner or later they will know all about this nasty bad news which they won't even dream of. I know asking for advice at DA's "Help with Life" forum just ain't gonna work as they're a lot of jokers out there giving non-sense comments. Asking for my real-life friends which I believe won't help much either since what can you expect from people who is as same age as me. How about elders if you ask? Nah, the first thing they often do is criticizing at your before they tell your parents about it.

So don't mind about how am I going to face the music. As I mentioned, laugh at me if you will...

Anyhow, this continues mishap for the past one year had driven my mental endurance to the edge. Not to say I can't take it anymore, it is just that I'm tired with all those ups and downs in life. Thats why I plan to put my entire life to a halt for a moment. Not quite a pit-stop but I believe it will be for a while before I can decide anything. It might sound confusing but this is the reality (as if I can hear fate is yelling "You're going down baby!").

So ladies and gentlemen, good bye to you all and before I forget, I would like to thank everyone at DA who FAV+, WATCH+ my works plus cared about me. Sorry I didn't reply to your lovely comments because i really don't have the mood to do so. Nothing personal, it is just my problem with life and I would like to apologize to you all if I had made any offending act (I'm sorry I thumbed a lot of same stuff again and again, sorry ThumbsShare).

Then again, this is part of mother nature, survival the fittest and I just realized I'm one of the weaklings who can't stand a chance to survive...

Anyway, farewell my DA friends...

[code_slacker out]

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Well, I was surprised to be notified that my advanced diploma exam result was out today which I though it will be on the 16th. I was a hard thing for me to swallow at first and subsequently I told my friend (Thanks, Wilson) to check for me and help me register for the resit if I had any fail subjects since I just can't face it. It was a coward act indeed but what can I say, it was not the first time for me to face this kind of "crisis" =/

The fact is that I wasn't suppose to enroll myself in the electronic engineering course the first place (curse my dumb-ass instinct) rather than taking other course which I may prefer a long time ago. But what can I say, I'm almost completing the course but in an unpleasing matter and not to mention the process is much like going through purgatory (I'm not over-acting).

This, on the other hand had almost ruined my progress in involving myself in photography (This explained why I don't have much works on DA). Until today, the course had almost restrict me from photography and the involvements in its respective community (Man, studying EE really sucks up your youthful days). I have to admit I have bad time management but it just don't have enough time for me to spare.

Then again, I must say now I'm totally mess up my current situation and I don't dare to even think about it anymore.

By the way, just got my new TAMRON SP 90 macro lens last Saturday and I must say this little fella kick ass, Big time! Played with it a few days and I must say the build quality was solid as a tank, far more better than my alpha body. The optics produced a very SHARP result and I mean it though CA might be a bit obvious under bright condition but I don't really care about that. Focus is kinda slow under limit mode but what can I say, all macro lens focus slowly. But one thing I must mention is that the lens offers a satisfying saturated images which helps a lot, which means I get a well-saturated photo and I don't really need to tweak around the saturation and contrast during RAW processing. With its F2.8 aperture rating, the OOF bokeh effect really makes your subject stands out from its surroundings since the SP 90 is notorious for its "creamy" OOF blur.

At the end of the day, the TAMRON SP 90 is a wonderful lens indeed and I will recommend this fella to all macro fan boys and as well as people who like close-up portraits. I give it a 4.5 out of 5.

P/S

Works from the TAMRON SP 90 coming soon.

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The title says it all...

Why it sucks?

#1 I have to fetch 3 photographers whom totally over-loaded my car which I don't suppose to.

#2 There're only 6 cosplayers on the event (Technically, there're only 2 who barely looks like they're cosplayer)

#3 The organizer (That's you Nikki!) has no idea what she was doing. Bad event organizing...

#4 Only 2 cosplayers (Ironically, they're those who doesn't look like they're cosplaying anyone) knows how to pose for the camera, the rest won't even know how to pose.

Well, First of all I have to admit it was my fault since this is the first time I ever participate in cosplay photography and totally have no first hand experience.

Well, everything start out as this, I went to the designated venue as the cosplay organizer, EMiNA had mention on the site. But things went horribly wrong when my friends and I reached the destination. The organizer (Yes, you again Nikki!) was no where to be found and upon contacting her, I was told to fetch 3 strangers to another destination for the photo shoot. Do the maths here, 1 small 3 door sedan X [(Me + Alvin + Stanley) + 3 strangers] = Fucking over-loaded meat squeezing bumper grinding driving experience.

Then things gets more hopeless when I was told that there're only 6 cosplayers in the event and during that time I'm already loosing hope on the organizer (Tisk tisk tisk Nikki).

Well,upon arriving the the new venue, the organizer (Nikki, Nikki, Nikki) had problem meeting up with us and I believe herself was also lost...

Next, after meeting up with the rest of the people, the situation went from fucking worst to oh-well-I-better-kill-myself scenario. I meet the worst cosplayer ever when I saw the 6 cosplayers. Not only they dress like your average teenager who're going to the mall, I can't recognized which anime characters are they cosplaying. Plus, they don't even have some basic makeup. Hoepefully, only 2 Dead Note cosplayer knows what they're doing, or is it?

Then came the photo shoot session, while everybody gears up, I notice something fatal, almost all of the cosplayers don't know how to pose for the camera. Ironically only 2 cosplayers who doesn't look like they're cosplaying anyone knows some basic posing know-how. On the other hand, one of the photographer spent most of the time he just laying on the ground taking shots and he was either over-reacted or he wanna take some skirt-up shot... =.=" .

Furthermore, those cosplayers won't even want to cooperate when asked to pose as they show no passion in it. The 4 cosplayers (including the death note cosplayers) just playing around with a fucking damn phone and wonders around like a soulless entity and it is obvious they're not in the mood for the photoshoot.

At the end of the day, my friend and I just quited the so-called "event" after a few stupid shots since the cosplay photoshooting sucks and I don't wanna fetch the 3 photographers back to the university.

Conclusion? Well, EMiNA, you and your bunch of carefree cosplayers really really mess up a potential cosplay photoshoot and wasted both my petrol and Sunday.


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Just bought my very first DSLR, the Sony Alpha 300 + 43GN Flash Gun in special price! Most importantly, tones of Freebies! Yay!

Really like the camera and its live view facilities. Hope to capture great picture with it. Had to thank dad for paying the bill.

On the other hand, new semester just started. Hope everything will be all fine.

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The meaningless…

The decaying night, haunted by the silent breeze
The lone crescent, coverts among the shadowy clouds
Scenes of the dying past wade among the silent crowd, promising a new world order and I wonder.

I sung the songs of the unsung heroes, spirit lifted by the tremor of the bloody battle cry, spearing the truth with the revenging javelin. I ponder into the air where the stench of the crimson blood and rotting carcasses purify the sinful soul, leading the advent of the greater ends.

Rhythm of the endless slaughter fills my ever tranquil ears, where the word of the deceitful prophet spreads, asking the people of blind to slain the innocent maiden, for the sake of their darker future, a pack for the great under lord.

Beyond the breezing meadow, I saw the city of the silent heaven, devouring her people little by little thus ensuring a painful death. The messiah grinned, as it was a mere plotted act.

Those true heroes of the city were simply meaninglessly puppets of the lusty hermit; they danced along the tune of his cunning string, accomplishing whatever pleases him. I looked back on the past and saw the image of Rasputin waving at me.

The symbol of the greater sins sealed the fate of the silent heaven where priestess were nothing but a mating tools, children were raised as a vessel of greater sin, orchards of the forbidden fruits sprouts, and the corrupted lord himself gambles with his rival foe where he shall ruin the city himself inside out.

I wonder the games they played, where the pawns slaughter the king while the bishop flee for his own sake, knights swindle his master and the queens of the two trade for lustful pleasure. At the end, the rook falls upon the striking bolt of thunder.

Far away in the shadow, the messiah grinned again with his rising minions of deceiving truth, waiting to vend his mercy to the fools of the silent heaven.

P/S I was just trying to kill some time...